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Fuck Love, Fuck You!!!

Sat Jan 10, 2009, 12:28 PM

I can't believe I wasted almost a year and a half of my life. On who? Somebody who couldn't possibly suck more in relationships. On what? Doing my fucking best and more to make that self-centered bitch happy, to make her feel loved, to make her smile knowing that someone out there gives a fuck and is ready to give her life for her. What the fuck for?! I asked for so little in return and I never got it. "I have a life too you know" That's what I got. And it fucking hurt like hell, cause believe it or not I have a life too, but I always said Fuck it when it came to choosing between said life and her. I said Fuck off to my friends, my family, my education, my health, my fucking everything so I could be there for her, with her, always trying, always blaming myself for not being good enough for her.
Well, I got it wrong, I got *HER* wrong or better yet, I didn't get her at all. Sucks to be me right now, but things are going to change. She's the one who's not good enough for me if she's unable to just pay a little attention to me and give a little fuck about me... Not that much to ask of a person who supposedly loves you, right?

Anyways, after that I'm officially through with love. Fuck it! Who needs something so painful and useless and complicated?! I don't. From now on I don't do boyfriends/girlfriends/whatever, it's just fuck and run, have fun and don't care about anything and anyone besides the people who really DO matter to me and that have proved themselves. It's my turn to be selfish, my turn to be a bitch, my turn to only give a fuck about what *I* want and what makes *ME* happy. So many people do that nowadays, so why not me?! Why should I always be the one fucked up, hurt, left out?! I'm as good as everybody else out there so I'm gonna act like it for a change.

Fuck love, that sadistic bitch! And fuck you! Thanks for never fucking trying!

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Mood: Disbelief
Listening to: Mushroomhead - Born Of Desire
Watching: Queer As Folk Season 3
Drinking: Whiskey

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*jadisofeternity Jan 10, 2009, 12:34:18 PM

I'm sorry to hear things are not going well for you.

you deserve some happiness and real concern from someone, I hope you find people soon who treat you better.

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=razrblck Jan 10, 2009, 1:01:53 PM

Story of my life...

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*ForgetfulRainn Jan 10, 2009, 1:28:51 PM

I can relate, sadly. But don't do anything you feel is beneath you. That's what having standards and values feel like.

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=nocturno Jan 10, 2009, 1:47:18 PM

Chalk it up to experience and move on. And don't look back.

~Fredendil Jan 10, 2009, 1:56:58 PM

Sorry to hear, that sucks, i feel for you

Just don't go on a self-destructing path in the process of not giving a fuck. You'll find someone else eventually, no need to hurry or despair over it. Take care

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~burntwolf Jan 10, 2009, 2:00:29 PM

Never heard so many f##ks used in so many different ways that takes talent. Sorry to hear about your life

this is why i show no emotion.

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~Terame Jan 10, 2009, 3:20:17 PM

Been there and I know how red with rage the world around you looks right now.

Don't let her example turn you into something you're not. Let it teach you something about yourself - be true to yourself and then the RIGHT someone will find you.

As soon as you try too hard, you're creating something that's not real. Realize you are worth it as you are and then you know you don't need to prove anything to anyone.

Take care

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~fatso-cat Jan 10, 2009, 5:22:07 PM

Sorry to hear about that
That sucks

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Its not the fall that kills you
Its the sudden stop

=Beschermer Jan 10, 2009, 5:35:51 PM

well seems like you'll have a wake of very happy guys behind you at least.

and none of them thinking this [link]

(trying to keep a light mood, if that wasnt apparent)